Quotation from: The Arrow of Gold

Written by: Joseph Conrad


And now my toilet was finished, my occupation was gone. An immense
distress descended upon me. It has been observed that the routine
of daily life, that arbitrary system of trifles, is a great moral
support. But my toilet was finished, I had nothing more to do of
those things consecrated by usage and which leave you no option.
The exercise of any kind of volition by a man whose consciousness
is reduced to the sensation that he is being killed by "that sort
of thing" cannot be anything but mere trifling with death, an
insincere pose before himself. I wasn't capable of it. It was
then that I discovered that being killed by "that sort of thing," I
mean the absolute conviction of it, was, so to speak, nothing in
itself. The horrible part was the waiting. That was the cruelty,
the tragedy, the bitterness of it. "Why the devil don't I drop
dead now?" I asked myself peevishly, taking a clean handkerchief
out of the drawer and stuffing it in my pocket.

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